Hello, it’s me Ayappi, or ASTEllA as per my rebrand on Twitter. m(_ _)m
To my blog followers, and to the amazing friends I have made in the aniblogging community you might be wondering why I haven’t updated Ayappi’s Room for a good 2+ months now. But before I start explaining myself let me first apologize if I have kept any of you waiting, or have been wondering about my sudden disappearance.
Okay, now on to the reason why I’m writing this article. It all boils down to three main reasons: personal life, I ran out of ideas, and a new hobby/interest of mine.
My course in university is a very reading intensive one. I wouldn’t say it’s on par with something like law school, but it is certainly near. Especially considering how we have a law subject right now in my present semester. Comparative politics, economics, culture classes, international law and IR, these are all topics where the required readings are at minimum 20-40 pages each. So reading all of these eats up a good amount of time. Add this with this trend I’ve noticed with my professors, where they dump everything at you in one go, dysfunctional group mates and night classes, I don’t have that much time, compared to when I started this, to think of (good) blog articles to post for the blog. The time I used to have typing up articles is now used to type up (or cram) papers, reports, proposals for my professors, or huge walls of texts to go “beastmode” on bad group mates.
Mind you I still have free time despite these circumstances. It’s not as much compared to before, but it’s still free time. But even when I do have free time…
Moving on to reason #2.
I simply can’t think of a good blog post to do anymore. I’ll be honest, for some reason I just can’t think of one. Yes sure, there are tons of new anime to watch out there, or new manga to read. But for some reason, even when I do find time to read the latest chapter of Insert Japanese Words here, the words don’t come into my head like they used to back when I started this blog.
Now I don’t know if this is all temporary, like the “artist’s slump,” or it has something to do with the level of stress I’m experiencing from academics and my personal life, but it doesn’t change the fact that my brain is dry. And honestly, I would much rather not post anything at all than force myself to think, risking my blog’s credibility, and eventually losing it because I forced myself too much that the thing I wrote turned out to be a piece of crap. As much as possible, I’m not someone who skimps out just to meet a certain “deadline.”
Though if anything, I think it has (partly) to do with the fact that I got into a new hobby.
Which brings us on to Reason #3.
I recently got into cosplay and lolita fashion thanks to a kohai of mine in university who happened to be a cosplayer, and I will be doing a shoot soon. I am still undecided on what to go for first (my cosplan or lolita dresses, though I’m leaning towards the latter), but you bet it will happen.
Now wait a minute, you might be thinking, why do I have the time to do this shoot but not write for the blog? As I’ve said, I’d rather not force myself to write if I don’t have any ideas and eventually churn out a piece of crap just to meet “deadlines.” This shoot will certainly take time, but it will most likely be a one day affair, unlike the multiple days it takes me to conceptualize ideas and write (most) posts in here. Mind you, I’ve been thinking about most of the stuff I posted in this blog for a good while now, that’s why they got released so fast. Add to the fact that there’s less mental work to be done (at least for me), I could just reallocate the brain power to writing papers for my classes.
Also it’s lowkey been my dream to wear lolita dresses or cosplay.
I really don’t know how to explain this, but this is the best I got as of now so here.
Again, I’m sorry I haven’t been updating the blog. Will there be future updates? Probably, if the words come into my mind, but no promises.
AGain, I’m sorry, and please have a good day!